I finally got the chance to collect my thought after a long night. I didn’t want a fight, all I want was talk. I’m sitting here at breakfast, eating a sad bowl and a half of pho, and all I can think of is all those time you drew hearts and letters in my bowl. I’m drinking coffee and all I can think was that 4 venti fraps were just the other day. I can’t go for a second without thinking about you. All I’m trying to say is that I do everything for you. I might take it to the extreme, I might be too much sometimes but I just want the best for you. Your words worry me sometimes and I’m sorry I don’t have a better mean to deliver my caring for you besides sounding like a blunt asshole. Please be well, I don’t want anything to happen to he most important girl ever. I’m sorry I can’t be there and say it in front of you. The best I can do is through this chunk of text. I’m sorry for my craziness, I never wanted to hurt you.

I have never been this scared before. When you told me you might not come back, my heart skipped a beat and tears just flowed out of my eyes. In my head, all I saw was just summer over and over again, I would not have you next to me. I would not get to wake up next to you every morning. All I could have done was to grabbed your hand. I did not want to let you go. I just want to be with you.

The moment you wrote on that board, I was happy. So happy. I felt blessed. I felt loved. I felt like I’m the luckiest guy ever. I never knew that me, out of all the people, would get to be with someone who is amazing as you.

Hey you. You are the girl of my life. M, you are the prettiest girl in my life. You make my life, better. Remember this too, anh yeu em and I will always be there for you no matter what. 

I really fucked it up, didn’t I. And then I acted like nothing ever happened. And tried to act cool about it. 

That’s literally what I do whenever I fucked something up. I’m just immature emotionally.  It’s just the one thing that I do and I hate myself for doing it… but it keeps happen. I know that it annoyed you, frustrated you so much but you still tolerate it. 

Forgive me and please, help me fix it. Because you are the only one who would be ridiculous with me, you are the only one who would hold a gold sword walking around the second most obese city in the U.S. You are the only person who would be like Kung without Fu when I’m not around. You are the one that I’m madly in love with. 

If you see this note, I just want to let you know; that whatever happens, I will always love you, my mad little asian nun. For now, sweet dreams baby.

-Yours
<3 P 

I know it’s only been a month of dating you but I have got to say that it’s been one hell of a month. Never had I thought that I would be dating my best friend, to say in the least, someone who knew me backwards and forwards, inside out. I was reluctant to ever consider someone who knew me that well to call my significant other—to me, it was unfathomable and a bit weird—especially after all the turmoil those relationships ended in. You knew that there would be other people, other suitors, in my life as well and that clearly didn’t faze you. I’m so glad that you saw me through everything. 

It’s been a month but I feel like I’ve known you for years (technically, we’ve known each other since around September?). I can’t imagine waking up to anyone else but you. Especially since I’ve been sleeping with you for the past month that I woke up with a kink in my neck this morning. You’re the first person that I haven’t gotten tired of or mad at even after seeing you everyday for a month straight. You mean the world to me and I grow to love you more everyday…

I love you for all of your acceptance. I love you for how much you care. I love you for all the yummies you get me. I love you for making me laugh. I love you for kissing all my tears away. I love you for holding me every night. I love you for plugging in my hair straightener and blow dryer in for me this morning. I love you for Sporcle-ing with me. I love you for trying to beat me at Tetris. I love you for being handsome. I love you for the OCD you have that your pants don’t go into your boots the right way. I love you for procrastinating while I type up our notes for our test next week. I love you for kissing me constantly. I love you for melting in my presence. I love you for the butterflies you give me. I love you for the butterflies I give you. I love you for being a great companion. I love you for being my best friend. I love you for, more recently, being my boyfriend. Lastly, I love you for all the reasons I love you and more and I love you for being you. 

Although it’s been only a month, Happy Monthsary, baby! I love you.

-M<3